INDEPENDENT ME??

Assalamualaikum...

how ya doin', peeps??

I'm doing fine, as always... a little bored, actually...
Currently, I am at the hostel...
during the semester break...
yup.. during the semester break..
wait a minute... 
 WTF???

Yup, it's out of norms. but it is not unheard of. Now I am in an organisation, and it requires an ongoing commitment. even during the break, we had stuff to do. not that I'm complaining. it is just that
I AM BORED.....
when we don't have stuff to do...

that's when I decided, "hey, why don't I write a post?? about myself??"
don't get me wrong. it is just I am not usually talk about myself. hehe...

My friends always said, before they knew me, they said I'm always alone... "Forever alone" to be precise..

for me, when you are alone, that doesn't mean that u loved being alone..or "Forever alone"... or being isolated... or an outcast...

In my case, I believed sometimes we just need some time to be alone...  especially when it is during PMS... I tend to get annoyed or irritated easily... and usually I will snapped... Ask my twin sister... it was terrible... hoho.. i am trying to become patient and keep my temper low. still, it is hard to do. I hate to be mad at others because all the negative aura from my temper will badly influence myself. once, I was so pissed off at my friends, I fell sick.

 'kay... it is a fallacy but one thing for sure, when I was pissed off, it will affect my mood entirely until I can't even do my work properly. that's why I prefer to stay neutral all the time.

I don't like to talk. I am not even a talkative person. and it took time for me to get close with someone. so, some people might think I am difficult to approach.. still, when I am close with someone, it shows. for me, friends are next to my family. i valued my friends a lot.

however, I like to wander around alone. I know it is dangerous, since I am a girl. and bad things might happen to me. but it is already became my habit. every time I went to town, i'll go alone. it is easy for me, as I can go anywhere than I like without thinking about others. it is also allow me to take my time, as I am very picky when it comes to shopping.

eating alone? it is not a problem. just pick a farthest corner of a restaurant and sit there.

if I lost my way, I just need to ask passerby. eventhough it is impossible to lost my way at Kangar. pffft...

once, there are no bus to Kangar straight away, so I had to go to Alor Setar first, to catch another bus. I was worried at first, since I never go there unaccompanied. You should see my father's face. he was worried alright. but, it turned out to be fine. I just had to have faith. that's all. 

when we go anywhere with our friends, we have to consider about their purpose too.

what if the things that he/she needs are not in the shop that we went?

what if she don't like to eat at the restaurant that I prefer?

what if he/she still need to do some shopping when we already done and it is getting late?

sometimes, he/she wouldn't accept our idea. so, we have to consider many things and compromise with him/her.

however, that was before. now, i always go shopping with my friends. yes, I have to consider and compromise many things with them. but it has become easier as we already become close to each other.

that doesn't mean I was dependent on them already. I can still do stuffs alone, when they are not there to accompany me. I think we all have to be independent because we will not always with the same friends. yes, now it is. but when we finished our study and have job. our friends not necessarily will have job at the same companies as we did.

Independent is good but not too much..

wll, until then... Assalamualaikum...